The Next Day

The good news is that today is the first day in a long time where my first thought was not of my own death. I eventually thought of it, but shrugged it off. So, that was a nice change. Maybe writing it out helped. The bad news is I did the food thing again last night. Instead of eating at home as we had been, we decided to go to Sonic to have half-price burgers. Of course, I volunteered to go and get them, so I could order lots and lots of food for me. See, here is the deal. I am ashamed to tell my wife how much food to order me when she goes and picks it up. So, I usually volunteer. That way I can get as much as I want and not feel ashamed about it. So, last night, I ordered myself a cheeseburger, a corn dog, some onion rings and a new product they had—fried macaroni and cheese. As if this was not enough, when I got home, I discovered that they had given us an extra cheeseburger. So, of course, I went ahead and ate that, too. That’s right. I had 2 cheeseburgers, a corn dog, onion rings, and fried macaroni and cheese. That wasn’t enough to satisfy my lust for food, so I topped it off with 10 oatmeal cranberry cookies that my wife had made earlier in the day. Of course, I washed all of this down with diet soda; because I am watching my calories…I’ve got to be out of my mind. Do you know what I had for lunch yesterday? I had 3 frozen beef and bean burritos topped with colby jack cheese, sour cream and salsa. I also had a cup of pudding and of course my diet soda. So, in all yesterday, I ate no vegetables and no fruit. I didn’t eat breakfast and the only exercise I got was from walking to and from my vehicle into work. I wonder why I am morbidly obese?

As you may have noticed from the date above, today is Halloween. I hate Halloween. I hate everything about it. I was not allowed to celebrate Halloween when I was a kid growing up. I was raised in a Christian home and Halloween is a celebration of everything that is evil. Unfortunately, it is the fastest growing holiday in the United States. My employer is making more and more money on it everyday. I was walking in to work this morning and trying to figure out when it became OK to celebrate death and evil with decorations such as mummies, skulls, coffins, grotesque and distorted faces lining the walls of the place where I come to make money. Oh, and the best part is, that most of these folks will bring their children in to see all of this, and it will be a great celebration with costumes, games and candy. The world has gone completely insane. Now, as a disclaimer, my wife and I have chosen to let our children decide if they want to celebrate Halloween or not. My daughter dressed up today for school, and it was her choice. She may even come to my work and trick or treat. But, then there is me. As if I did not have enough problems, I am now looked at as a leper because I choose not to join in the morbidity. That is OK though. I will get my reward someday, I pray, for holding true to my convictions. I should have taken the day off…